Behind a Smile

If you think about it I'm sure everyone knew that one person who was always smiling no matter what, always happy, always so bliss. They never ever frowned and when they did everyone knew something must be really wrong. Well I guess I'm that one. The one always smiling always being strong for others, but why do I smile? I bet you will never know. Heck even I don't know why I do. I guess I always just thought it would be easier then answering all those questions from all those worried.

         Behind my smile is a hurting heart.
 Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart.
 Look closely at me and you will see,
 the girl I am...isn't me.

          I didn't want to admit it. It
 was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and
 emptiness to smile instead of cry.

          No one will ever know the pain
 I feel inside.

My bloggly song, (Like weekly song except I don't blog reguarly) 

Boulevard of Broken Dreams-Green Day

Hope

I still remember the first time we spoke.
I remember laughing at your jokes.
Remember your brilliant smile.

One single date,
Awkward, fun, and full of memories.
But most of all the pure joy.
The hope and the thoughts,
The first time I ever thought,
I might love someone.

Slowly everyday my hope builds,
Then you shove it down again.
The building never stops
just getting slowed down.
I think I have a chance 
until you do it again.

We start talking.

I fall a little more.

Then you bring her up again.

She crushed you!

Ground you to a pulp,

But I was there for you.

Why can't you look up?

Just once really notice me.

Not just look and talk to me,

Truly SEE me!

I think I really love you.

So please! I beg you to open your eyes!

I know you'll do it again.

Knock my hope back down.

But I can't help it,

Because I love you.

My song choice this time! I'll always choose new ones. Great songs about love not necessarily fitting to the exact blog post its on but always about love.

Teardrops On My Guitar

For the First Time

Sometimes you fall in love and sometimes you soar instead. It's all a matter of figuring out your thoughts and your heart. I'm not sure I will ever know for sure if I'm falling for him or just soaring in the moment. Till I do know my confusing teen life will be here for all to read. 

    Did you fall for someone? Or are you the type that just soars in the moment? I will be honest, I have no flipping idea what kind of a person I am. So enjoy me figuring it all out.

Falling for You- Secondhand Serenade

Randomly going to post songs about life, love, and more. Please check them out!